“Have you ever been depressed?” my doctor asked.
“Yes” I answered.
“So you know what it feels like” she said.

I remember the dullness………………….the robotic functioning……………………..lack of joy………….. the numbness………………………. the hollow heavy dragging sensation……………………no fun………..…………… no aliveness…………….no purpose.

The 2 health professionals that I was seeing at the time said that my body was depressed. They didn’t said that I was depressed. Quite a distinction, I think.

It can seem like being stuck deep in a rut – permanently.

It can seem dark.

It can seem there is no happiness available.

And there can be a looking outside to the circumstances that seem impossible to change. You might wish you had the power to change the circumstance. Well, you would want to change the circumstance, wouldn’t you? Because if you could, then you wouldn’t feel depressed? Right?

But is this true? Is this state of depression a consequence of that circumstance or might it be there if the circumstance was different?

So assuming it’s not circumstance dependent, and if you can’t change the circumstance, how else to get out of that black hole?
It’s all inside you. Somehow you have set up a thick protective covering, because there is something painful lurking inside. It’s scary. And you don’t exactly know what it is. And you can’t work it out. But it’s got to the stage where the protective covering is more trouble than its worth.

And at some level you know this. At some level you want to be free of it.
And the real you is not depressed.

Want to feel alive and free?