This morning I decided to sit silently with my eyes closed.
I decided to just notice what went on in me.
I noticed that as my eyes closed, it felt like I was dropping somewhere peaceful, without outside stimulation.
I noticed my breathing – the air going in and out. And as I felt the air going out each time, my body relaxed further. It was like the out breathe drew me down deeper. And I went with it.
I noticed that after noticing my breathing that my mind came up with a thought but it was light and floated away.
I noticed that there was tension in my chest and I was curious about the detail of how it felt – tight, rough, brown, holding-in, a bit of movement in and out, expansion as I allowed more.
I noticed that there were thoughts on a variety of topics, all mixed up, with none of them following a direct line to anywhere. I let them be.
I noticed my heart beating.
The tension seemed to have relaxed though I was aware of a dull sensation there.
I wondered whether this “I” would fall away and would let me be deeper inside and realised that this was a thought – the start to moving away from this moment.
It seemed like everything was here altogether, mixed up – thoughts and body sensations. A thought would begin and not finish. A body sensation would be felt and not continue.
I stayed with it all.
Into this, I dropped.
Emptiness so expansive that it included everything.